Renewal

Recently I've been going through severe emotional problems due to my job and all that comes along with it. I feel so lonely at times and it's so hard to deal with it. There are people here that I can talk to, but I don't reall have enough confianza with office staff and volunteers wil give you advice one minute and then the next they'll be bad mouthing you, questioning whether or not you're here for the right reasons. My family doesn't call me as often as I would like...actually they really never call unless they know that I'm upset that they haven't called.

Basically, I have been feeling very much neglected and alone (plus I had an intestinal infection ast week and thought that I was going to die). I just wanted someone to hold me and listen to what I had to say without judging me. I called an old friend and he encouraged me to stop looking to man and to start turning to God. In my mind I had been hearing this message for weeks, but I never sought Him out. Yes, I prayed...but only half-heartedly. I read the Bible...again half-heartedly. I was so caught up in how my family and friends were NOT checking up on me that I forgot that there is someone who will NEVER LEAVE ME! Someone that will be there when no one else can or will be there. Someone that'll listen to all of my problems, whether they're valid or not. SOmeone who loves me more than anyone has or ever will love me. I didn't turn to Him and I continued to suffer. I continued to let depression ruin weeks of my life.

I thank God for Akwasi's life. I thank Him for placing someone in my life that encourages me to nurture my faith and rely on The Most High. Today I'm feeling renewed, knowing that problems will come,but feeling capable of handling them. I know who's on my side and I can do nothing without His help.


Stay blessed,
Mya